idontbeg,idontborrow...isteal: January 2010

Thursday, January 28, 2010

you watch your front..i'll watch your back

let it be friday already... i need 'you' weekend... let me lay with you

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

practical

"To Higher Places" from Maximilla Lukacs on Vimeo.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Friday, January 22, 2010

i can't. i can't i can't i can't.

i can't do this anymore. its going to kill me. i just can't. i need to move on.

but.

i can't stop loving him. i can't and i need to because its the worst thing ever.
i can't because thinking of everything that happened literally makes me sick to my stomach.
i can't because he's the only one i ever think about.
he's the one i don't want to think about, but i cannot stop.
i can't because i never got to kiss him, i never felt his breath between my lips.
i can't because i spend my days fantasizing about him surprising me,
showing up on my doorstep, telling me he made a mistake.
i can't because i see her everyday.
i see her and i think of what they used to have and i agonize over whether he chose her.
i can't because i don't even know if he chose her.
i don't even know because he is so confusing and frustrating
and he makes everything so unclear.

i can't because he might still have feelings for me.

there is that sliver of a chance and while i know its probably not true,

it makes it impossible to let go.

i can't because i think about being in his arms every second.

the hairs of his beard brushing my cheek gently.

the feeling of his warmth beneath my fingers.

i can't because the way our fingers intertwined was perfect.

it felt warm and soft and right.

i can't because he understood me.

he just got me, right from the start.

and i don't find that often. not often at all.

i can't because we would be perfect together.

i know we would. and it's too hard for me to give up on that.

i can't because EVERYTHING makes me think of him.

crayons. tattoos. band tees. school buses. nose rings.

and every time i see them im completely overwhelmed.

i can't because i practically start crying in the middle of the gym when a song comes on that makes me think of him. which is a lot of songs.

i can't because i've tried and it doesn't work. i want to stop so much.

its just not going to happen.

i can't because i don't see other guys. i don't even see them as being guys.

its like they don't exist to me now.

i can;t because i imagined our insane, amazing, beautiful future and it's all i want.

i thought it was really going to happen and now the pain is eating me up.

i can't because i want him more than i've ever wanted anything in my life.

i can't breathe. i can't focus. i can't be without him. i can't go the rest of my life wondering what it would have been like.

i just can't.

(via leloveimage)

to: jeff

remember me

i'm the one who makes mixtapes and newly enjoys the jack n' the box taco. i'm forever heels over head for one man. i have made my mistakes, but have learned from them. i buy way too many candles. i buy anything that supports breast cancer. i make a mean chicken scampi, right jeff? jeff by the way is my better half.

Bionic Pixie

Do you ever hear a song and go "Holy shit! Give me a can of Sparks and a dance floor right NOW!"?

Snow Graffiti

Snow Way!!!!

Goodone

(via StyleBubble)

Thursday, January 21, 2010

LUST

I'm pretty sure my heart skipped a few beats when I layed my eyes on these Gianni-Barbato boots.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

"Reversible Destiny" Lofts

Built by a pair of artist/architects who believe that “It’s immoral that people have to die", these reversible destiny lofts are intended to outlaw aging and it's consequences. It wasn't our intention to get super deep here...we like 'em for their whimsy quotient and their colorful exterior. (Via treehugger.)

Paper Planes

Fire Tornado

bitch

Lovey x Dovey

Lovey X Dovey is an awesome hand-done T-shirt line from one of our former About A Girls, Lola Dompe, and her friend Alex.

Femme Fatale

Heaven Can Wait

Charlotte Gainsbourg - Heaven Can Wait from Charlotte Gainsbourg on Vimeo.

The Phenomenal Handclap Band "15 to 20"

Chaircouture

Taking vintage furniture and adding their own signature touch, Chaircouture are seriously blowing minds with each of their one of a kind pieces. I think this bed can be defined as whimsy at its best. X - Drea

The Drums "Let's Go Surfing"

Chic Sin Design

Transform your living room into a woodsman's dream with these log pillows, where the grain of the log is knitted instead of printed. Fort-building just got a lot more awesome.

Buddha Shaped Pears

A plastic form that forces growing pears to take the shape of Buddha. An enlightened idea?

(Via BoingBoing)

Pillowcases

Australian brand Third Drawer Down has enlisted Miranda July to scribe two pillowcases. One says "Here you will dream of endless kissing," and the other says "Here you will dream of people you admire exposing your fraudulence." It makes choosing which side of the bed to sleep on all the more important.

RUMSPRINGA

Rumspringa is the Amish term for adolescence, before teenagers have formally committed to the church and are able to explore their options. It's also this duo, who explore blues, rock, psychedelic riffs and about everything else you can imagine to create unusually captivating and almost unnerving tunes.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

gifting with jeff in mind

Doodah Supermodel Skateboards

Never thought I'd see a pair of Rodarte heels and a skateboard together but I love the outcome. X - Drea

coachella 2010!!!!

blunt!!!

just stamp and check those that apply: "go to hell" has a nice ring to it.

make me happy: #1

~~Flosstradamus featuring Caroline Polachek~~

This collab between Chairlift's Caroline Polachek and party-throwing duo Flosstradamus is a wee-bit out of left field. Here's hoping it's the first of many more like it.

we are the people

Empire of the Sun

We Are The People

Empire of the Sun

MySpace Music Videos

when i grow up

When I Grow Up from Fever Ray on Vimeo.

Captivatingly beautiful in a very un-nerving way, this video for Fever Ray's "When I Grow Up" is on par with Sigur Rós's "Glósóli" for its haunting depiction of childhood.

smoke or quit

A lighter in honor of all those struggling with their New Year's Resolutions right now. You can do it!

a white demon love song

Rick Owens Drkshdw

This is exactly the kind of hoodie that could make you pursue a stranger through dark, rainy downtown back alleys only to finally come face to face and discover they have no face.